Alcohol!!

So should you blog when you have had too much too drink?
I think the honest answer is no. Not sure that my typing will be up to scratch tonight.
Well number 2 son is home till Monday, which is really good.
Pressure off over hubby's health issues - going to see doctor on Wednesday - still no appointment for consultant.
 Still finding it very difficult to do everything - the question " Is this it?" still seems to be loitering around a bit too close.
All the younger generation seem to be doing all the things that I wanted to do - did I ever have that sort of freedom? I think not. The parents never really let go and cut the cords. And me? I always believed that they knew best. But at 55 I realise that they didn't but it's too late now for me. Trouble is they still haven't cut the cord and handed over the baton.
So here I am - hubby not brill and parents even worse. Missing sons. Where do my priorities lie? Who do I support first? Feel pulled in every direction!
Was strange earlier - was so close to tears - could hardly speak. But a bit of slit your wrists music on spotify and a fraction too much bubbly stuff and I feel okay - though I may crash out soon.
Definitely can't manage another glass - if sons weren't here would go to bed
When I was at college, training, I really thought that There would be more than this.
I know that I have three amazingly awesome sons but I thought that I would have had more.
Some how and some where I have cocked up big time.
I have many blessings, I love my family and my God but is it an even balance - NO.
off to bed now
Good night and God Bless
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