For Richer & Poorer, In Sickness & In Health

Marriage vows - an important part of the service but one that tends to be skipped over when you are thinking about your future together. When you're young and healthy with a whole working life ahead of you, the negative part of those couplets doesn't even register. That's not us, we're healthy, we have plenty of time to save for our retirement.
Then suddenly here we are - closer to death than birth - life hasn't gone as we thought.
We haven't managed to put aside savings - the decision was made that I wouldn't work so I could be there for our children. The money we did save was to help support the boys during uni - even then they will still be in debt when they finish.
So we've definitely got the poorer bit - maybe teaching wasn't such a brilliant career choice.
Now we have arrived at the "in sickness" section.
I think I could be a good carer - but I have to be honest about my weaknesses. I am not strong so no lifting. I am really not good at bodily functions - babies were bad enough - I even retch when I'm clearing he dog's poop in the garden!
But what about patience? On the whole I am very patient but just occassionally I erupt, which if you're not well you really don't want that.
I'm not sure exactly where we are in the sickness ralm. Firstly hearing aids now live in our home - once the initial period of adjustment that should mean an improvement. Although my paience is waning a bit.
Tomorrow we may - or may not - move forward with the other issues.
So how am I feeling - well I'm worried  but then I think of Paul - no not my cousin - the apostle!
He sang praises while he was in prison, he didn't know if he was going to die.
So I know I can trust God. He isn't Santa - He can say no and not yet; He sees things as they are and not as I think they should be; tomorrow is in God's hands.